The Learning Curve ...

God's really been showing me growth in my life I think over the last few weeks. It's been a really really difficult couple weeks, but He's really used people around me and just different moments when it's just me and God to really let me know where I've come from. One of the things He's said was in a time when things were the hardest and I had just been told really bad news about a good friend and there was a lot going on. I was walking back home, not having a quiet time or anything and He basically says, "You're not blaming me" and I realized .. like wow.. I think a few months ago that would have been an entirely different statement like "STOP BLAMING ME" haha, but the fact is He's used SO many things to bring me to a point where I know He's good. He never changes. He never stops being faithful. He always brings us the best regardless of how it may seem at the moment. I just really feel Him around. As I'm even writing this out I'm realizing that God speaking at that moment wasn't only powerful because it was Him who said it .. but it was powerful because He wanted me to realize that He will speak to me as obviously as He needs to when I know I need Him and I dont have to be in a quiet time or not doing anything. I guess I'm just at a place where I know that if He needs me to know something He's going to tell me and He's not going to wait for me to be sitting in a park, alone, with my Bible open to such and such a passage, and my notebook on a new sheet, with my pen in hand and hymn music playing softly on my Ipod. If He needs to/wants to, He'll speak when I'm on the verge of a breakdown in a dodgey area of town because He loves me.